Social Anxiety: It’s a Bitch…but I’m not!

I had to write about this. It has been bothering me for some time now.

Social Anxiety is something that I have struggled with all my life. Ever since I can remember, I felt like I was being watched and judged by everyone. I feel like every flaw I have, every mistake I make, is the first thing people notice. Logically I know that isn’t the case, but my brain refuses to acknowledge this 🙂

I’ve always had trouble with speaking to strangers, maintaining eye-contact, etc. I have a major fear of not being able to cope or respond to all the silly social scenarios that I think may occur, all the “what ifs” that would leave me embarrassed or humiliated. This ties in a lot with my emetophobia as I have a fear of being sick in public. Since anxiety makes me feel nauseated, I often worry that I will be sick when I am anxious or nervous in a social situation. Oh this fun loop and tangling of fears!

As a result of all of this, I can appear to be pretty “standoffish”. People think I am snobby or bitchy because I am pretty quiet and usually don’t speak until spoken to. I avoid eye-contact. I fidget or have my arms crossed.

The same thing happens online, I find it hard to strike up a conversation or maintain one, so people think I am ignoring them or that I don’t like them. For example, I am a contester, and a major part of contesting requires you to share, tag friends, etc. I have a hard time with this. I don’t know why, but it does bother me. I’ve lost friends online and in “real life” as a result of not being social enough online or seeming like a bitch.

The truth is, I love socializing. I really do. I love people and I love interacting them them, but I just have all these “limitations”. When I get to know someone and feel comfortable around them, watch out! LOL.

Some of my self help methods have helped a lot so far. I seem to get a little better as time goes on. I keep challenging myself by facing some of my fears, stepping outside my comfort zone.

That’s my ramblings for now. I feel like I have so much more to say but don’t know how to say it. I wish it was easier for people to know that I am not purposely avoiding them or being snobby. I’m not a bitch, I swear! 🙂

Am I alone here? If you have social anxiety or are extremely shy, what is it that you are fearful of in social situations? Embarrassment or humiliation? What do you dread happening? I’d LOVE to know so I can get more insight to it.


My Twitter Account was Hacked :(

Well, so far it has been a rough start to this month.

A few days ago I had formatted my computer to try and solve some hardware issues I had been having. After formatting I had downloaded an older version of software (not pirated) from a site that had it hosted on a file hosting site, before I had my virus scanner installed. I immediately downloaded my scanner, scanned and sure enough there was malware in it. I cleaned it up and never thought nothing of it after since my computer had been just formatted and was relatively clean as a result, I thought I was safe.

Until today. Chrome had crashed and my PC locked up while I was busy doing a few things. When I managed to get back in, I had noticed I had 1 tweet remaining in my account 😦 6 years of tweets…gone 😦

I had checked my authorized apps and there were a few tweet deletion apps there with UK ip addresses, and one from Germany.

I feel so sick about this. I had a lot of important tweets. My tweets for reviews, tweets to friends, etc. I like to enter contests too, so all my tweets for entries are gone.

I really hope this isn’t a preview of my month to come 😦

Update:  It seems as though most tweets from August are forever gone and the older ones from before August are still showing in my tweet count and can be seen if I have a direct link to them but nothing prior to September 1st shows in my Twitter timeline. Everything has now been scanned and cleaned and password changed, so fingers crossed that it doesn’t happen again!

Infernal Innovations #1 Magnetic Phone Mount Review


I was invited by Infernal Innovations to test and review their Magnetic Phone Mount at a heavily discounted price. Since I had been in the market for a phone mount, I jumped at the chance to try it out.

Both my husband and I are big techies. We love to take our phones everywhere with us. They are our connection to the world when we are on the go.  We use it for communication, photos, and GPS.

We have purchased car mounts it the past, but the quality just wasn’t there. They would often fall, move around too much, or have a limited range of motion. They were just not useful.

The Infernal Innovations Magnetic Phone Mount came with a bonus adhesive disc, which I love because it allows me to put it whereever I want. My hubby didn’t think it would stick to our car’s dash because of the texture of the surface. He expected to have to use the adhesive disc, but he was pleasantly surprised to see that it attached strongly to the dash without it. 

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Hubby’s Windows Phone

The mount itself is built extremely well and is really durable. It has a 360 degree rotation, so I am able to move it to any angle I want. It also offers side to side swivel which none of my other mounts have had. This is great, since I don’t have to take my phone off to move it to one side. The suction cup is unbelievable. It sticks to nearly everything and it does it extremely well. Once you suction it on to something, it isn’t budging!

One of my main concerns about the product was the magnet and if it would be strong enough to hold my phone and if my phone may drop if there was any sudden breaking motions, etc. It has a really strong connection, even through my thick phone cases.

My iPhone 5S

Right now I have it on my desk. I love keeping my phone mounted next to my monitor so I can see any texts or notifications as they come in. The suction cup does a great job at suctioning to my desk.

As you can see, I am really liking this mount. I can see why it is the #1 Rated Magnetic Phone and featured on CNET!

If you would like to purchase this mount, or want to know more about it, you can check it out here at Amazon:

If you decide to purchase, you get a risk-free 5 year warranty for customers and a better than money-back 60 day guarantee. How awesome is that!?

Disclosure: I received this product at a heavily discounted price in exchange for my honest review of the product.

Life & Food’s Pure Garcinia Cambogia Premium Extract with 80% HCA Review

Garcinia Cambogia has been a pretty popular supplement since a certain doctor praised it on his television show as being a miracle weight loss pill. You see it EVERYWHERE! Online stores, web banners, popups, YouTube etc. Despite it being so popular, does it really work?

First, let’s talk about what Garcinia Cambogia is. It is a tropical fruit which also goes by the name Malabar tamarind. The rind of the fruit contains hydroxycitric acid (HCA) which studies show helps burn fat and decrease appetite.

I admit, I was once sucked into the hype and purchased a few bottles on They were really cheap, and I couldn’t wait to try them.  Sad to say, after taking a 3-month supply of them, I had been disappointed. I did not have any loss of appetite or weight…just loss of money.

So as a result of my failed experience with using Garcinia Cambogia, I of course blew it off as being a scam.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago. I was invited by the company Life & Food to apply to review their Garcinia Cambogia Premium Extract 1400mg with 80% HCA for free and provide my honest opinion. Due to my past experience with taking Garcinia Cambogia, I was skeptical but since I needed to lose a few pounds, I decided to give it a try.  The company claims that their product is safe and effective and has no artificial ingredients, soy, wheat, shellfish, peanuts or dairy.


I followed the direction on the bottle and was taking it a half an hour before my lunch and dinner every day. I noticed a major change in my appetite from day 1.  I am the type of person that thinks about my next meal while eating my current one. I am obsessed with food. Several times I had found myself looking at the clock and realizing that it was past meal time. I would normally be checking every few minutes to see if it was time to eat yet.

After a few days, I stepped on the scale and was down about a half of a pound. Nothing major, but since I have less than 15 pounds to lose, the weight doesn’t come off in large amounts. I was pretty excited.

About a week after taking it, I had come down with a cold that rendered me useless for about a week. My workouts were pretty short and low impact, and I ate a few more comfort foods. I really expected to gain weight, but I was surprised to see that I maintained the weight I was at.

So now, after taking it a few weeks, I feel like my clothes are fitting better. I have less desire to eat every waking minute like I had in the past. I am still at the half a pound weight loss, but I am happy with that. I started a new strength training routine and started taking creatine which causes water retention, so I do think that I have lost weight and fat off my body despite the lack of change on the scale.

What I learned was that Garcinia Cambogia can indeed work if you purchase it from a reputable company. Avoid buying cheap bottles from Amazon, deal websites, eBay, etc because you never know what may be in them or if they work. You’re just wasting your money. I would highly recommend Life & Food’s Garcinia Cambogia. It is available for purchase on here.

Disclaimer: This product was provided to me free of charge in exchange for my honest opinion. All thoughts and opinions posted are that of my own.

On the Hunt for the Perfect Fitness Band

I like wearing fitness bands. I like how they tell me approximately how many calories I am burning each day, how much I am moving, how much I am sleeping, etc.

For my first fitness band, I put a lot of effort into finding the band that would be the best fit for me. After months of looking, I settled on the BodyMedia Fit Link. I loved it. It had more sensors than other bands on the market and the studies showed that it was the most accurate tracker on the market. It did have some downfalls, like having to wear it on your upper left arm at all times (which left a dent in my bicep that is still there months later!) and it had some issues with syncing. It also had a monthly subscription fee of $, which I’d rather not pay. My band is currently on its last legs, it almost lasted 2 years though. I am looking for a replacement that has the same features and sensors.

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My BodyMedia Fit Link during its last days

So far I have found only two bands that have the same sensors that I want my new band to have (Galvanic Skin Response, and the Skin Temperature). A band with a heartrate monitor and accelerometer only like a FitBit won’t cut it for me.

One of the ones I found was the Microsoft Band, which I did purchase and resold because the smallest size was still way too big for me. Without it fitting snug, the accuracy was way off. It was a pretty nice band though that had many features. I just wish the wrist band was more adjustable. The Band 2 is in the works though, so maybe that will fix that issue.

The other band that I am currently looking at is the Jawbone UP 3, which is now available in Canada. Jawbone is the same company that now owns the BodyMedia Fit Link, so I assume it would be the closest match to what I want since it has the same sensors. The only problem is that reviews for the product and their customer service are for the most part, horrible.

So now the hunt is on for a new fitness band. Do you have any suggestions, recommendations? Anyone have any experience with the Jawbone UP 3? Please let me know in the comments 🙂

The Oil Cleaning Method

As a regular reader of Reddit, I recently discovered a subreddit that had all kinds of topics about skincare, Skincare Addiction. One of the first posts I had noticed in was a topic about the Oil Cleaning Method (OCM).  It seemed like this was a miracle worker for a lot of people.  I recently started getting a lot of painful, cystic acne again and was pretty intrigued. The OCM isn’t something that is new to me, I’ve heard a lot of about it in the past year with so many oil cleansers hitting the market as part of a new trend.

I have tried using the Garnier Clean+ Nourishing Cleansing Oil without much success. In fact, it just caused me to breakout even more.  So at that time, I decided that the oil cleansing method was not for me.

So upon finding this post which is so informative, I decided to pull out my Garnier cleansing oil again and give it a try, using the method they had described in the post….two days later, breakouts.

So, not wanting to give up, I found a link which lists the Comedogenic Ratings of oils that can be used to cleanse your face. Since mineral oil has a rating of 0, and has had people breaking out from it in rare cases, I decided to go with that.

The mineral oil brand I picked up was the exact brand, which is Loblaws store brand. It was the only place I could find it and I am not even sure it is the right one, but it was the only one. It is listed as being a laxative. For some reason you have to ask a pharmacist for it since it is only available behind the counter…I can’t imagine why. Seriously, if you know why, can you comment below 🙂

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Anyways, I decided to give it a shot and was surprised how my acne started clearing up and the bumps that I had under my skin for so long were starting to come to a head. As of right now, almost everything is cleared. I just have the scarring left over from my previous spots.  My skin is starting to glow. It has only been a week so far, and I am hoping this keeps up.

So have you heard about the Oil Cleaning Method? Have you tried it? If so, what kind of results did you get? I’d love to know!

25 Random Questions

I’ve seen these fun questions done on YouTube and thought it would be fun to do them here on my blog. Here goes!

1. Do you have any pets? Yes, 3 cats named Missy, Chloe, and Molly, and a dog named Callie.

2. Name 3 things that are physically close to you. 1. My iPhone 2. Cup of coffee. 3. Softlips Cube

3. What’s the weather like right now? Cloudy with a bit of sun.

4. Do you drive? If so have you crashed? I do not drive! I really want to, but I am petrified! The biggest problem for me is having to do a driver’s exam. I have social anxiety and the thought of being trapped in a car and being judged by a stranger really scares me. Maybe one day. I’ve thanksfully never been in a car accident.

5. What time did you wake up this morning? 9:06am

6. When was the last time you showered? Today at 3:30pm

7. What was the last movie you saw? 50 Shades of Grey

8. What does your last text message say? One I sent to hubby: “I have to pick up an order at Chapters in Corner Brook next week”.

9. What’s your ringtone? The iPhone default ringtone. I reset my phone and keep forgetting to get a new one.

10. Have you ever been to a different country? No.

11. Do you like sushi? I’ve never had it before.

12. Where do you buy your groceries? Dominion

13. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster? Yes, on a few occasions.

14. How many siblings do you have? None.

15. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? Both. I prefer my desktop.

16. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?  36

17. Do you wear contacts or glasses? both

18. Do you color your hair? Yes.

19. Tell me something you are planning to do today: Already did it…cardio and abs.

20. When was the last time you cried? I honestly can’t remember.

21. What is your perfect pizza topping? I like chicken, hot peppers, Frank’s Red Hot Sauce, ranch dressing.

22. Which do you prefer-hamburgers or cheeseburgers? Cheeseburgers

23. Have you ever had an all-nighter? Yes

24. What is your eye color? Hazel

25. Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke? Yes Review

I love bar soaps. I prefer using them over liquid soaps and body washes any day. I just find they make me feel cleaner in comparison. The problem with most bar soaps is that many leave a residue behind or leave my skin feeling stripped.

I was pretty excited to be offered the chance to try a bar of soap from I had the option of picking Sandalwood or Dead Sea Mud, and I chose to go with the Dead Sea Mud bar as I figured this would be the most beneficial for my skin during this time of year when my skin has been oily and I’ve been having breakouts.



Here is what the company says for the Dead Sea Mud bar:

“Dead Sea Mud – Purify your skin with powerful Dead Sea Mud minerals, renowned for their regenerative, healing properties. Relax as the soap washes away impurities and balances skin oils to give you a more radiant complexion, naturally.”

The bar, which is square, came in this cute little box. I just love the fun colours on it and the little window in it so you can see the bar peeking through. I really appreciate that the company lists the ingredients on the back of the packing. Notice that everything can be pronounced? All natural, organic ingredients. It’s soap that I can feel good about using on my skin, especially on delicate areas like my face.


To me, the soap smells similar to that of the liquid soap that you find in dispensers in public bathrooms. I actually like it, it smells fresh and clean.

The soap lathers up very nicely, which I like. It is a creamy leather. I prefer using a soap that lathers a lot as I feel it makes it easier to gauge how well it cleans when I use it.


After using the soap, my skin was left feeling clean. Not dry or tight, but comfortably clean. The breakouts I had been experiencing on my back and on my face have been clearing up, which I find pretty amazing. I’ve been using harsher soaps and creams in the last few weeks to help clear it up with no change at all, so I am pleased that this has been helping.

I only had one issue with the soap and that is that it is messy! It leaves black suds everywhere and temporarily stains my face cloth. It does come off easily though and is not fault of the company, it is just the type of soap it is.

I would highly recommend this soap from the and I look forward to trying more in the future. The prices are a little higher than I had ever paid for a bar of soap, but the bar very solid and after using it everyday on my body and face, it has barely changed in size. I suspect that a bar would last a very long time.  That and the fact that the soap is all natural, organic, handcrafted AND free of harsh chemicals, preservatives, artificial color or detergent makes it worth the price.

They have over 70 different soaps available on their website. You can choose to buy the soaps you want in their soap store or you can sign up for one of their specialized monthly soap plans which offers free shipping. I love how they list the skin care benefits for the ingredients in each soap.

You can find out more about the company and their soaps on their website.

*Disclaimer* I received the product to try at a heavily discounted price in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own.

Low Fat, Low Carb Iced Cappuccino

So it is finally starting to warm up a little here in Newfoundland. My friends and family have been drinking Iced Cappuccinos from Tim Hortons and since I follow a low carb diet, don’t get to have these tasty treats. I can make my own though, and you can, too…and save on calories! A large Iced Capp from Tim Hortons has a whopping 470 calories! My version, if using the same ingredients as me, has 25 calories. Here is the recipe:

Low Fat, Low Carb Iced Cappuccino

  • 1 cup of coffee, chilled
  • 1 cup of unsweetened cashew milk (can substitute with almond, coconut, or any type you want)
  • 1 cup of ice cubes
  • Sugar free vanilla syrup to desired sweetness (or any other flavour you’d like). I used Starbucks Sugar-free Vanilla.
  • Blender

Brew your favourite coffee. I brewed mine in my Keurig on the strong setting because the ice waters it down a little. Put it in the fridge to chill.

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When the coffee is chilled, add your milk of choice, ice cubes, and syrup to your blender.  I used a Nutribullet.

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That’s it! Simple, isn’t it? Of course you will have to play around with it and adjust amounts used to get it to your liking. You can also use decaf coffee if you are sensitive to caffeine or would like a late night treat.


Here are the macros:

25 calories, 1g carb (net), 1g protein, 2g fat

the size would be compared to a large Tim Hortons Iced Capp which has:

470 calories, 63g carbs(net), 4g protein, 20g fat

Give it a try! I find it tastes amazingly similar!

I’m Getting My Own Room + Other Updates

No, not my own bedroom, but my own workout room! My own gym so to speak. I’m pretty excited about this!

We’ve decided to build a new garage this summer and originally I was going to have my own loft space for workouts but due to spacing and the weight amount, it was decided that instead of putting in a loft, we’d add length to make my own room. It won’t be overly big at 10 x 16, but big enough for me! In that space I will also be getting a homemade power rack built, so I will be able to do so much more. Right now I have a squat rack with safety pegs but I don’t feel safe with it.

It won’t be started or finished for a few months though.

Other than that, I have been taking it somewhat easy for the past week or two. I’ve started a new 4 day split routine and have been evaluating my macros. I’ve been adding in more fat to my diet and have been feeling more satiated as a result, but now I’m just waiting to see if that gives me an increase on the scale. Although Keto makes me feel so much better, I find it hard to get in a deficit with it to lose. I’ve been contemplating switching to a If it Fits Your Macros style of eating (IIFYM). We’ll see. Trial and error for now.

Since my kids have been out of school, I’ve had a pretty empty house. My boys are visiting their grandparents which is over 4 hours away. My oldest son comes home tomorrow and will be leaving again the day after for Army Cadet camp for three weeks. My youngest son decided to stay longer with his grandparents. So it is just me and the cats.

So that is about it. Nothing too exciting. Until next time…